A BROTHERS POEM

Words of Love From Lil John

I find it so very hard to believe

That you have gone and I must grieve;

I call out your name -- you answer not,

And I look for you in every familiar spot.

Everything seems so strange and surreal,

I ask everyday is it a dream or real?

Where are the soft brown eyes of affection?

Where is the laughter and talk of childhood reflection?

Where is the loving care when I was sick or sad?

Where is the generous soul for which I was glad?

Where is the forgiving and understanding heart?

Where are the bonds that were there from the start?

I miss all the little ways you showed you cared

For there were so many good moments we shared;

Looking back on my life’s assorted scenes,

I realized you taught me what love truly means;

You were my trusted confidante and best friend,

On whose loving support I could always depend.

I miss all the little ways you showed you cared

For there were so many good moments we shared;

Looking back on my life’s assorted scenes,

I realized you taught me what love truly means;

You were my trusted confidante and best friend,

On whose loving support I could always depend.

I look at your smiling face in all my photos;

Memories flood my mind as I touch the mementos

From the happy times you and I have had,

But now these bring tears and make me sad;

For the time together went by in a wink

Life was not as long as we’d like to think

Now I look down at your name on a cold hard stone

That says little of the loving light you have shone;

It tells nothing of the wonderful person you were,

And only serves to remind me of the painful loss I endure;

But I know your kind soul wants no tears or pain,

Instead you’d want warm memories and love to remain.

Although I cry and stand grief-stricken by your grave,

I promise not to forget the loving memories you gave;

But still I miss you so very much my sister dear,

And your caring words I once again long to hear;

My heart’s only solace is one day I will see you as before,

Beckoning me to come join you on that white distant shore

Sometimes memories bring comfort and make me smile,

But there are times when grief takes over for a while;

Friends offer gentle words and prayers to console,

And tell me what has happened to your loving soul;

Can it be true what they say of time healing grief?

Is it enough when they say death has given you relief?

Can we believe what others say of a better place,

Where our beloved ones rest in God’s warm embrace?

I should be happy you’re free of pain and sorrow,

And rejoice that you’ll always have tomorrow.

How can I then be so heartbroken and selfishly cry,

Return to me from that peaceful place where you lie!”